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T'was okay.

Except for BM, Add Maths, History,Physics Chemistry, Biology, Accounts, Moral, English, Maths.

I don't even know what's in my History books except for the obvious - words, pictures, past events in Malaysia.

And I'm an SPM Candidate. 11 years of knowledge judged in 3 weeks.

Speaking of trials, I've got my graduation too :) It's on the 28th of October.

I don't know if my dad can make it though..

Anyways, I'm getting excited.

New dress, shoes and a hair cut! I look like Tarzan now minus the dreadlocks. It's almost gonna reach my ass and my bangs completely cover my face if I don't pin it up.

Did I mention how sucky my grad picture is? You know the one they're gonna put on the screen and showcase it to everyone while I take my scroll? The pimples on my skin are visible and I looked like as though someone dropped an anvil on my head. My eyes were creepy. So creepy. Like those anime characters. Those 2 white circles in your pupil? Yeah, it's cute on them but definitely not on me.

When I was looking at the picture, I kinda looked like my mum when I smile. Well that's nice. I'm tired of looking like my aunty and my dad when I frown.

Now that I think about it. I feel kinda upset. I'm gonna leave to college and we're gonna be seperated. MY FRIENDS :(

I've known some of them since I was 7 years old.

It's been a good one for sure. Yeah, we have had our ups and downs but you guys are just like family to me. Shucks, I can't imagine making new friends again and sharing my experiences with anyone else but you. Nostalgia's creeping into me again.

Those memories, bitter-sweet yet utterly blissful.

Never regretted anything.

Growing up with these guys was the best. Yeah, we all grew up well together. Do we really have to part now? Whatever I've gone through these past 5 years, moulded me to the person I am today. And I've gotta say, I'm pretty happy with myself. It's those experiences that count the most. I'm glad I did it with you guys.

I feel like being a kid again.

From cheap pleasures of drawing on tissue paper and walls. To waiting to get outside and play in the playground and meeting up with the playground kids. To getting bitten by fire ants and running home in pain. To playing make believe and tag. To Climbing door frames and roofs of slides. To saying 'ayo ta ta yo balik rumah makan sayur' whenever your friend makes a mistake. To watching Looney Toons every Sunday Morning. To making fruit salads in kindergarten. To start the morning prayers when I was younger. To sleepovers when we had 2 months of holidays. To Play Stations when graphics were simple and when WWE was WWF. To burying relatives in sand and accidently drinking alcohol in coke cans and thinking I was drunk. To running around and recording pointless sounds and insults on a tape. To having showers with the cousins and initiating water fights with the hose outside our house. To playing digimon and trading pokemon cards. To always kick ass in Crash Team Racing/Chocobo Racing with my parents/cousins and finishing Crash Bandicoot 2 and 3 (1 was too hard haha). To being bullied by my cousin brothers and a girl 2 years my junior when I was 11. To always be the Blossom when we played Power Puff Girls. To watching old school shows on TV. To thinking lame ass monsters my cousins made were real (Count Puchila).To locking myself up with my dog Samson in the cage. To ghost stories by Nimmi Akka and hanging out with Appumama and Yogimami. To the laughter and thrills as well as these new experiences I gained. To just being a kid.

This is just what I can think of now.

I'd do anything to relive that.